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Thursday, December 23, 2010

I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone.

I've been drinking this vitamin water since I chanced upon it on my BFF's tumblr 'cause I've yet to try all the flavours. They actually taste good, and they're healthy, so why not? :D The only vitamin I really need the most right now is probably vitamin C, so my immunity system doesn't wear out while I stretch my body to its limits.

Anyway, FOTW ended today at 2, and Tai planned to go out today 'cause I'm not free on the days he is and he's not free on the days I am (and he's back from Australia so time with him is more important now!) So, him, Val and I hung out together, doing what other normal teenagers would :) We are only human.

I have absolutely no idea why I went for the camp. I rarely go for camps - rather, I never go for camps. The main reason why I went was because I wanted to take that first step of eradicating my irrational fear towards camps. So, the camp wasn't that bad. It was a difficult step but doing something out of your comfort zone is the first step in doing what seems impossible from afar. I just will never get over how I have very little (and close to none) tolerance for cramped and dirty showering spaces...

That aside, I actually know I have the potential to lead and plan - I'm just lazy, I admit, because I know someone else will step up to the task and do what I could be doing. Not blowing my trumpet or anything of that sort, I know I can do it... I just have to stop being lazy. So yeah, I volunteered to be part of the Organising Committee for the FOCamp in the coming year :)

Then I realised I ~~might~~ would be away during that period 'cause I signed myself up for a mission trip~ Oh well, just got to see if I'll even be chosen to be part of the OC. I've stated that I can offer to make sure the rules are brought across in the most accurate manner and that I'm willing to go through all the rules (including games) in the camp. It's a totally boring and arduous task but hey, I'm willing to do it ('cause words are just... SO LOVELY) I know they will most definitely need help in this area. It's an absolutely dirty task but nerds like me... wall of texts are nothing to us 8D

So, I went home straight after the camp :) No reason for me to stay on anyway, no one's waiting and no one to wait for. I decided to and took a cab home :) And the cabbie that drove me was such a nice driver (and he was an indian!). He asked if I was fine with him playing Indian songs and hey, it's totally fine with me! (Y) You silly cabbie :)

Though it was just Tai, Val and I, it was fun... although Val had to go off first... leaving me alone with Tai and it was a bit awkward but I guess it went well 'cause it turned into an impromptu lesson - Tai imparting knowledge and teaching me the techniques and physics of how the game is played. I've seriously never thought so hard and long while playing pool! (Eh my hair is quite awesome hahaha. I haven't styled it since I got the ends bleached and omg, sexyhexy~ Check out my claws too~)

I think I managed to pull a proper conversation off with Tai throughout the entire time :D If there were more people and more time, we would end off with a tau huey session! But oh well... We have until February before he goes off again... And I may be heading there in late March, I hope I get to go somewhere near him so I can visit him :D~ I can't believe I've been friends with this guy here for a decade already ^_^

We parted after, him to the airport and me to the arcade. You know, I think the only reason why I was so fit back then though I didn't exercise at all, was because of DDR. Stamina and muscles... I'm super unfit now. Hahaha.

Therefore I'm going to try and jog 3 times a week and continue doing crunches everyday :) I'm only exercising to keep myself fit, not to lose weight. I have no weight to lose, I have no fats to burn... I'm just trying to gain muscles alright? I'm still anorexic but I'm trying to eat more, and stuff... But I keep burning fats faster than I gain them. Not sure whether to feel happy or worried.

It's nearly 2am, I should sleep. I have work later and I'm not done with my homework (think I'm only 15% done so... time to pull up my socks!). And yes, I'm going to jog tomorrow morning! I think.

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