Remember when you were the king
of everything? Remember when I
was the queen of how time fell
asleep? Remember when sand fell
through the hole in the belly of the
hourglass? Remember when you
belonged to me? Remember when
you loved me even though you didn’t
want to say the words? And I did.
Remember when you and I were all
we had and we didn’t even need
anyone else? Remember when you
hugged me and meant it instead of
doing it out habit? Remember
when you told me I was the better
writer and it was all that kept you
sane? Remember when it mattered
the most and you let me down?
Remember when you stopped
talking to me? Remember when
you let me go and then begged for
me back? Remember when I let
you go without ever really letting
you go and I faked and faked and
hurt and never knew what to do
with myself because I needed you
and couldn’t admit that to you?
Remember? Remember when
we were solid even though you
had all these holes in you? When
I wanted to patch up all the holes
that weren’t even from bullets yet?
Remember when you hurt me
and we both cried? Remember
when I hurt you back and felt
worse? Remember when you
fucked with my head? Remember
when I didn’t know who to believe?
I still don’t. But I lean towards you
because I don’t want to lean
towards anyone else. Do you
remember that? Remember
when I shook up that hourglass
so time wouldn’t exist anymore?
Remember when I told you what
I didn’t want to tell other people?
Remember when I betrayed your
trust? I still regret that. I still hate
myself for it. Remember when I told
you not to let me go and that I’d kill
you if anything happened? What
would I do if you weren’t around
anymore? Remember when you
told me I looked pretty and I didn’t
know what to really say back?
Remember when I felt like I was
losing you and you didn’t seem to
care even though I was clinging
on really tightly? Remember?

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