It's only been 26 days into the new year and so many things have happened already. Anything goes within minutes, don't even bother with days or weeks or months. I've consumed even more alcohol in the past month than I have back when I was working at that shit hole. I've sent even more parcels overseas in the past month than I do locally. I've done too many crazy things that I usually wouldn't have, given the person I am. Maybe there's still a lot to figure out about myself, or maybe I just don't know myself at all.


Cheryl came back for a week in December. I managed to meet her one day before she left for the States and words can't express how much I've missed her. The next time I'll see her is in 2017 so... hopefully by then I'll be able to tell her cooler stories of what I've made. Times like these, I'm more than thankful for the existence of Skype and Whatsapp LOL


Also I finally got to meet my bubs after months. Probably had a little too much fun that night... but who's to say anything's too much?


Cr: Ashri
Took my new camera out for a spin with Ashri recently too at some gigs! It's pretty darn awesome but my Nikon will always be my baby. Hehe Nikon forever!! Also it's been ages since I've been to any art shows/exhibitions -- I think I need to add more slots into my calendar. 24 hours a day just isn't enough man. No I need a personal assistant.


I've also pissed someone off to the point of no return. I meant every single word (though I might've went a bit far) unlike the others I'd threw away so... I don't know. Shit comes in many different forms though the most familiar of all is the matter that comes out of our assholes. Hahahahahaahhahaha shit also comes in the form of things and people and emotions so hello January you have been rather interesting to me lately.




Right, I had a haircut too.

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from you came the greatest heartaches ive even gone through,
came the greatest lessons ill ever learn for life,
came the greatest pieces of art ive ever created

from you leaves the stronger person from your embrace,
leaves the braver person from your words,
leaves the wiser person from your existence

angels and lessons
you have taught me everything (without a poisoned apple)
i never thought i’d need to know
you rekindled the flame i’d snuffed out just to get by
with the gentlest of gestures, i will never forget
you probably didn’t know why you were doing,
and i don’t expect you to remember,
for you were the angel with a lesson -
only to be forgotten once it’s all over

angels and lessons
you were the most beautiful of them all

(Why did you approach me, why did you say hello?
Because you looked lonely, and I didn’t want you to be alone.)

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2014 has been a very eventful year so far. It actually still hasn't registered in my head that it's 2014 (and that half the year is already gone). The FYP period has been pretty grueling but there were beautiful things that emerged from the hellhole.

I don't even know where to begin. There were as many massive highs as there were lows. Most of us probably felt like we were not gonna make it. I have absolutely no idea how we all sailed past the final gates but then again, failure was not an option HAH.

The year began with me and red hair. I loved my shaved side a lot but it was time to grow it out so... for as long as I had coloured hair, I knew I wouldn't go for a haircut xD It's all good now. My friends suffered a lot helping me with my hair and I'm thankful. I've actually had 3 different reds in my hair. Red #1 was an orange-based red, Red #2 was neon cherry-based red, Red #3 was fire red. I had a lot of fun with my red hair but it was starting to get really annoying. Besides it's time for a change.




I had 2 projects to complete for my FYP. FYP1 went well, though I almost fucked up real bad. The idea only came to me 6 days before submission and there were quite a few hiccups along the way. It turned out well - I liked it, my lecturers liked it, pretty much everyone around liked it too. Critique went well, if memory serves me well, though I missed out a few important points... And! I submitted it for crowbar because I think this might win something. Hehe fingers crossed.


FYP2 killed me. It didn't turn out very well, per se. I think it was only the concept/idea that saved my ass because my execution was pretty shitty. I'm too lazy to explain my work anymore but I'll not forget this. Who knows, maybe in the future when I'm that bored, this "idea" might manifest into reality. ;) Until then no one else will hear of this ever again.


At the same time I was finishing school, most of my SP guy friends were halfway through army. I've missed them very much but I'm glad I've more time to meet them now. LOL I swear we don't always look this ugly. There are many more somewhere out there but we will all meet again soon before we all go damn far away.


The Grad Show went well. It's the biggest show (according to school) having combined both the diploma and degree showcase, and we've used almost the entire campus 1 for the exhibition... and we've pretty much made everything really huge. Loving the book we compiled together despite all the problems...... Ahahaha my showcase didn't go as planned in my head, it probably went better than expected. I never thought my photographs would physically see the light of day ever - and now I have nowhere else to put those photo frames but on my wall. I think I love the set up a bit too much...



I always think the year I'm in would be the biggest, most insane year of my entire life, but the following years always manage to throw crazier things at me. 2013 didn't really end - it just melted into 2014 (no pun intended). I don't know why but this year feels like it will end on a very nostalgic note.






The experience of time is just a concept. No one knows how far we're all going to go, but there's no need to worry. The past and the future does not exist, there is only now. While we use time to chart events, I can only hope I don't fall prey to the illusion of time.

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I have not updated in 3 months. Things have been so busy since I started Year 3. Not gonna lie but I started off on a really bad foot with super bad/poor time management and I swear I almost died. If I were still in SP and if I fucked up from the start, I would be a total goner already. So I'm really thankful I still managed to pull off all this crap and not flunk anything at all...

So, lots of shit happened since my last entry. I've climbed over some of the biggest mountains in my life so far, mountains I thought I'd just fall and die from, mountains that seemed impossible to scale years ago... I'm still alive in one piece (almost).

I went back before my surgery to grab the gown photos and these are few I edited! There's a lot more sitting in my laptop but I'm so lazy to get to fixing them... Hehe. Oh we had a small shoot with Carmel after my surgery because Adrian wanted to try something. We had fun... Hahaha




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I ended my internship 3 weeks earlier so I could get my wisdom tooth surgery done. Because I was a coward, I went under and had all 4 teeth taken out instead. I had the best dentist ever (through my previous orthodontist, and the surgeon who took me for my gum surgery). He was really friendly and gentle, and absolutely professional - my surgery was done in 30 minutes and he only had to shatter my bottom teeth twice at most to get it out. So if you ever need to get your wisdom tooth extracted, do drop by Mt. Alvernia Hospital's Dental Clinic and look for Dr. Anthony Goh!



Mount Alvernia Hospital
Clinic: Progressive Dental Specialists Pte Ltd
Address: 820 Thomson Road
Mount Alvernia Medical Centre
Block B #03-10
Singapore 574623
Telephone: 6251-1189
The healing period was fine, and like I said I was a coward, so I asked for the strongest painkiller that won't kill me if I accidentally overdosed. Turns out I didn't really need it, at least I only took it for the first two days. I was just really afraid of stray pieces of food falling into the wound because an infected gum is a bitch. My previous gum surgery (specifically the second) left me a little shaken because the anaesthestic wore off a bit too early after the surgery. I did not want to go through that pain because it literally felt like a migraine in the jaw, and it hurt my whole head so bad...

Oh, there weren't any major bruising through the healing period for me so it was a good experience! Thank you Dr. Goh! You saved my life, honestly. I was so afraid for this when I was 15, when my orthodontist told me I had 4 and I would definitely have to have them all taken out. Thank you for almost ruining the rest of my teenage life... Haha.

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Right after that, FALL OUT BOY CAME TO SINGAPORE, AND PERFORMED FOR US. I can really die in peace now that I've seen my precious boys live. At the show I made some friends (or rather I already made friends, but haven't seen them in person) and now I have concert buddies! Awesome.



All my boys were in their top form that night, and it was the first time I've been in the free standing pit near the middle - it was total insanity. I was afraid I might faint from the heat and whatnot but I did not, and I am grateful for that. I am also very thankful that, despite everyone's sweaty bodies rubbing against each other with their arms raised up in the air, there was no BO at all. And to the two nice guys behind who helped pushed away this bastard that kept "rocking" too hard to the point of knocking me off my feet, thank you so much :) Ohhhh and thank you to Laura for accompanying me to this concert! Thank you for being so awesome, for rushing down after class (though school is just 10 minutes away) with food and joining me! You're the best Indonesian friend ever. Mwa.



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Also I bought a guitar! To say I've always wanted one is pretty much an exaggeration. I have wanted one but it was never on my list to actually get one but the moment I saw this one, I knew I had to get it. So I guess it's partially an impulse buy? But I've been playing on it almost every day and my fingers are slightly seasoned? So nice. I decided to choose the nicer looking one ToT so it's gonna take a longer while for the sound to be round. But it's okay! All's good man.


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Proud to say I've finally been inside MBS and stayed for the night! Courtesy of Carmel and her family. They were really nice and I felt bad for crashing in but they welcomed me like family :') It was a really nice stayover and I didn't feel much awkwardness. MBS is pretty nice but the history behind its entire being is just ridiculous. *Rolls eyes*



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Had a few sleep/work overs at Carmel's and whether we were productive or not... Well I think we were. HAHA


Oh, her family friend from the UK stopped over Singapore for a little holiday so we brought her out, in the midst of our submissions. Okay so maybe that's why we were busier than the rest... We brought her to eat quite a number of things while she was here for about a week or two, and she also went to the zoo! I think I was more excited than her inside the zoo, hahaha.





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My cousin recently got married and I'm happy for her. However I clearly suffer from occupational disease (职业病) that even at her wedding as an audience I'm noticing all the little flaws and whatnots.. I definitely had fun dressing up for her wedding because I already planned what to wear a month ago, hahaha.


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I've been spending too much money recently too, buying things I like but don't really need. But now I've got awesome new shirts, so it's okay. :')



Also, I've been doing stupid things with my classmates and I've been hanging out with my old and new buds a lot recently and I'm very happy to see them... though it's not all of them. :') 12 Oct is coming soon!

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